It's funny, there are so many things i wanna write about but it's always me against myself, i just couldnt post it up, something is holding me back. they are just things i couldnt tell out to the whole world yet i wanna let it all out.
For a moment, i was thinking, was it because im afraid others would pass judgement on the statment i made?
Partly, but most of the time i just couldnt be bothered why do i even have to care about what others would think? yet there are occasions regarding special thing. it is these special things that if i were to express out it would cause and stir up alot of mixed feelings.
And yes, its not the first time ive encountered such a dilemma. i used to be in an attitude "ive got nothing to lose letting all these out". but now, pffft, i just couldnt ive a few personal setbacks i just couldnt be the way i was, no more. im no longer the fighter. Funny tho, id called others "scammer", yet i was once in those shoes.
Well, not the financial scammer, but, heh :P y'kno wat im talkin bout.
To tell you the truth, I felt the same again about this post, if i should even post this up. I am telling myself, i do, no point in hiding it no more. This is what i wanna say. I know it damn well when i feel this way. It has been years, how can this feeling go wrong?
Then again, why am i even writing all these? Fact is, I just dont want things to change the way they are now.
It's just simply because i couldn't help it but to tell you that i have fallen for the something in you that is more than what beauty can attract, it is simply indescribable.
Just don't ask me Who? What? Where? When? How?
