This point of life, tells me a lot about people.
Everyone has their hearts broken by everyone.
Everyone has gone thru their own hell of a time.
Everyone has their own troubles
Everyone has their own insecurity
Everyone is unhappy
Everyone is waiting for that time to be happy again to live like a 18 year old,
Everyone including me...
But no...
those time had passed, we cant turn back time
Everyone is tired of this war...
So what if we win the battles?
Its not gonna end the war,
One battle after another
One after another,
I'm tired...
Arent you?
Sometimes I no longer know what I am fighting for...
People start throwing accusations at each other...
I start to doubt myself...
It has been so long...
I dont even know what i believed in anymore...
I cant tell if im right or wrong...
I got no place to go to,
I got no shoulder to cry on...
I no longer know how to feel anymore...
We used to fight for what we feel is right...
But is it really the right thing?
Sometimes we feel used up and wasted.
I have been shot,
Bruised,
Kicked,
Betrayed,
Left to die...
What more do I have to go through?
Each time i failed to die
Each time, I had to pick myself up and walk again.
Pain...
I no longer... feel it.
I dont even know if am going thru it over and over again...
Back then, i would fight back even when im down...
Right now... im only feeling...
What's the point anymore?
Can we stop all of this?
I no longer want to exchange fire
It no longer serves any purpose.
So what if i shoot back at you...
Things will still stay the same...
Life is already as difficult as it is,
Lets just not make it even more difficult for one another...
Im tired of recovering and to be wounded again.
We are all tired of it...
We are not machines... We have our limits tooo....
Right now I only feel like crying.
Begging God for mercy.
For peace and love...
I have nothing to payback in return...
only my beaten broken self.
Everyday... I lose more n more strength
I became more n more discouraged
I have lost all my will power...
Im already at my last...
