Each and everyday I woke up thinking about someone once most important to me, how I wish I could still do even better and how I wish things would be better and at the end of the day I felt totally devastated at the very facts of the present. I no longer wish to hope. I started to look back even further, and it was that back then when I got out of my emotional turmoil, I told myself, "I am coming back to the world like a storm and sweep people off their feet. I will be a force of nature and I will change the way they look at things.". And this time, I will do it better. And this time, I will not take a year to recover. I will do it now. Because, honestly speaking, when you're down, people don't love you and people will just pass you by. Like a shipwreck, nobody gives a fuck when you're down there, but when a wrecked ship comes back alive and resurfaces, everyone gives a damn. I've had people telling me they loved me this and that bullshit, well that only happens when I'm at the top of my game. When I'm down? I'm left out there alone as they watch me getting consumed by despair. Their concept of love is totally different from mine, I'm the kind that will pick you up till you're fine. Theirs is, I'm gonna love you till the day you fall. It's fine, totally fine. It's showbiz. I don't have to hate the world, just gotta hate the game. "Thank you for watching me fall. It makes me stronger."

Today's philosophy - "When you're at the top of your game, everyone loves you. When you're down, it's gonna be a good fight alone."

So each and everyday, before you leave house look at the mirror and tell yourself. You're gonna prove yourself today. You will come back to this game! It's no longer about taking each day at a time. It's no longer about hoping tomorrow will be better. We're gonna cover as much ground as possible each day. We're not the luckiest among the children of God. But we will, strive to be among the best of his child.

Live strong. Die hard.