T'was a productive night talk. It has been a long time, years, since I've actually sit down and talk about deep thoughts with anyone. Really appreciate the fact that she came all the way. It's a good fact to have someone that understands what you go through as they themselves underwent the same path and felt the same. We always mend other's problems. We didn't know how to solve ours. When I apprehend those problems, it always gives me a sight of where I want to be headed to. I don't want to be in the loop of life. I want to break away. I want to be more than now. As I pursue my paths, I still believe in the Queen of my life. One that would work hard hard with me to improve each other's life. Not just for the leisure of pleasure or for marriage and get old for family, but to take life to it's fullest! I still believe in you, I just havn't met you yet. One day together we would rock the world!

"We've been in moments, so low that we just wanted everything to stop so we can take a breather. So low that we need someone to talk. We were often left out there in the dark in the bottom pit between fear and blame. We fear the consequences of losing all that matter to us, and just to feel better over what has happened we point fingers and blame. It's the kind of moment its all so painful, you felt stuck, with these feelings. So painful you felt like ending it all. It's times like these that you just want to end it all including your life. End the misery of the pain. It is this kind of situation, you pray to God that he hears you. And the only thing we can hear or see are us drowning in our own mess. But no its never the solution. If we were never in the dark how can we know where is our light?"

We know, we carry different personality around portraying the kind of person we are to different people. For now we just need to decide who should see any of these personality. Only show your true self to those who seek the real you. As how I would put it, "Anyone that seeks beyond the surface, deserves the deeper truth. Those that don't, given the truth would just ignore and forget."

"Don't waste your time believing in people who promises to cheer for you and to be your cheerleader, when you needed them the most they aren't there, most of the time. Words are easily said, but it's actions that matters. It's nice to be given hope but it's even worst to believe in it and to have yourself robbed of it. Anyone that is truly sincere would try their best to put actions into words for you. And that my friend, that person is you, yourself. You don't need anyone to understand you. But you only need yourself. If someone truly wishes to be involved in your life, they will naturally be at their best for you, if not just move on ahead."

Each and everyday to tell myself, never would I allow myself to slide back down on life. Keep fighting, keep seeking, keep moving and keep believing! Always improving. I don't want to be another person who lives in life's loop!

"Treat your goal in life to be like when you are drowning, you fight your hardest to gasp for air. All you wanted is air, you only focus on the air. You want it so badly, not just a desire to achieve. But set everything else aside, pain and disappointments aside, only focus on what you wanted the most.. Be a benchmark in everything you do!"

Words of my Thoughts.