"We all carry things inside that none else can see. They hold us down like anchors, drown us down like the seas."
"Some of us are just trying to go through the day, without falling apart."
I realize, by giving hope to others, in a way we try to feel positive about our problems. I don't know how to solve mine, so I listen to other's, hoping I could find my own light when I do. I am just as broken as you are. There is not a single day that I could avoid having this fear, that one day you are going to discover that I am not as great as you once thought I was.
"Time & time again, I made up scenarios of us. Again..."
Because it is that sometimes, that very sometimes, you love someone so much that not even the truth can change your mind. Because, every time when I make you happy, you're the prettiest girl alive. And I know, I'm no longer this person for you. And regardless of what has happened, still...
"I admit that I planned to say terrible things to you, but end up I just want to tell you I miss you."
Little did I know, one of the hardest things in life, is having words in your heart that you can't utter out.. I wish everyone didn't have high expectations of me, because it's bad enough I let myself down. I don't need to let everyone else down too. I really wished I am much stronger than this, but I can't.
"So, I am gonna pretend nothing ever happened and distance myself from everything."
Words of my Heart.
