OT till midnight for the whole week, body starts to feel weird. The ghost still lingers around when I'm home. Seems like everyday its same old. Atleast for the past few days, she's been spending much more time with me, keeps me distracted. It seems she is once again, comfortable around me, revealing to me more about herself. Entertaining me & stuff. I admit, the things she say does make me smile. True enough her name meant light. Perhaps that's why. I was abit worried when we went out. We were both wondering why, why are we so reserved when facing each other? Feels as if we held our walls high waiting for each other to let go. But, the whole night was great everything was so unexpected. I am sure it was better than our initial plan. Nice place, nice singing, & a nice pot of tea.

I should know better, in my position now, I am not to confuse the hope that she shed on me for love. Just so happen we're on the same boat, doesn't mean its feelings. I am sure it is much deeper than that. It's not love. It feels as if now she's putting me back into pieces again. She knows, I've fallen apart. Just like back then when I fixed her up.

Really hilarious when she goes into full details about her favourite food. And it ends with her saying she loved fried rice the most. She is indeed complicated, but I think I can handle it.

Just when I was about to rage against the world, she came out. I wonder, if it's God's decision. Just when I'm about lose all of my calmness. Seriously, I hate asking for things. Asking for help. More over, asking to be loved and to be attended to. I really don't know what comes next but, I do know, the chess piece is in my hands again.

It seems as if we both have made countless plans together, we always foiled it. For the moment, I do look forward to have our BBQ session together.