Just a lil' note from me to you.

Yes you know it's for you, Suria. Lolx. I just read your blog. Just as we promised. Read from Jan 10 backtrackin till all the way to Oct 08. And yah im suppose to giv u an unofficial report lol. From what observed from then to then, I can only feel your pain. Seems like every time we talk or when we share to each other, i start to feel the similarities. There are things i can relate to. The way things made you felt, the things you wish and hoped for. i was in a shoe similar to yours. Can't say we regret it, do we? We could only say, we did the best we could, but if the opposition refuse to do justice to us, we would atleast do justice to ourself, innit? I used to tell the other person, do things that are justified to us. Yes memories of such are un-erasable, but we can set it aside. Even though you can't stop the nights of when you would cherish the bitter sweets of it. You were wounded, you had lived through it and it became the scar. The very scar you had to see and lived with the rest of your life. Even so, i strongly believe, we would open up and write the next chapter of our lives.

In a way we are writing our own life's story book, who knows, one day when we were to meet God, when he gave us our own story book when we looked back into our lives' chapter, we knew we had loved, we had hurt, we had lived and had moved on. Our happiness and sorrows were the bookmarks to it. I told myself & God that this year 2010, i want to open up my heart, I want to love and be loved and I wanted to change the way i lived my life. It was a resolution and a desire. False hopes and confusions came along the way.. But God sent me a message, telling me my loneliness are to be filled and i will experience a major change in life. Up until the time i met u again i was still dragging my feet around, searching and searching. This is like a dream come true and a wish come true and a prayer answered. I slap myself in the face and believed upon a change has come to me and, most of all, your very presence.

Reminiscing, thru the old days, 3years ago, back to the way we would stand together and "olololo" together all the way up til to when i told you how i felt and to when u flew to aussie. Back then things were different, and yes i knew it was that guy. i had seen him b4 and i know my senses were right. And, David, and yes that time i know he also has a thing for u. He played things the way he did as u had seen. I am just keeping quiet. I could only want to chat with you more and more often. All along the way. Seems like computer has been kind to me and has saved the conversations that we had had. they were from September last year up till now. Back then, we were occupied with our own things we hadnt really sit down and share some of our "olololo" culture, and it was hard to catch u around. I am really glad that all these leads to this very day. And this very day, i am glad i was given the opportunity to do what i hadnt had the chance to do 3 years ago. ;')