Tuesday, February 23, 2010

A personal note to self.

Vulgar Content. Offensive content.

None has to bother to read this post. I have no intention to burn any1. But if you do, yeah i dont care if u get burned by it.

i cant fucking take it anymore. im sick of being in this shithole. sick of the tension, sick of the hunger. enough is enough. when u look deep within you, you feel like shit. im not gonna, im not gonna fucking doubt some obvious bullshit. yes is a yes, no is a no. nothing else matters. and no i dont fucking care. all you did was desire but u fought for no shit because u wanted to play safe. you could not satisfy your desire's hunger. you're so fucking messed up within u barely know urself you no longer know what you actually wanted. you're wearing a mask, when u look deep into the mirror you cant even tell who you are anymore.  you built in guilt within coz you fucking blame urself over some shit people throw at you as if its your fucking fault. yeah you just wanted to be the one who tried to even give a damn. you dont have to give a shit to problems that is not yours. its not your fight dont fucking waste your time. no candy pie ass can help you solve ur problem even if u spend a lifetime tryin to keep their ass above their problems.

no, no more shits like this anymore. every morning you're gonna look into the mirror you're gonna say i'm on fire im gonna burn every moment of this day. you're not gonna sit and stare in an empty blank anymore. no more feeling down, no more discouragements. you're not gonna try or attempt any shit you're just gonna do it, bulldoze it till you're there. trying aint natural, it's just gonna end up putting yourself down coz you freaking tried and failed. One of your bros told you to keep it real. It about damn time to keep things real.

Since none knows what shit you're facing
none know of nothing that could encourage you,
you're gonna talk strength into yourself.
no candy pie is gonna cheerlead for you. you dont need it and you dont ever need to depend on it.
Those clown knows no shit, they gonna say you're crazy. But you just wont give a damn.
Rage your desires maxx, rage every one of it.
No more fantasizing, no more dreaming.
Nobody's sound advice is gonna get in the way.
No shit head can tell you down.
You're gonna bend till you break.
You're gonna crash and burn.
Nothing to lose.